Last blog of '08

Last Blog of '08

ehh my year was filled with a lot...but the month of December for me was just so crappy.

That's why I have soo many blogs for the month.
So many dramas && stupid emotions.

But I try to remember the Year as A whole && it was good.
OK so yea last blog.

Hello '09

-New Year same Meech? Metri? Lametrius?

Waterworks..

She knows what she does wrong
She knows that she is losing people as we speak blogspot.
She knows that she is aloneranger in this world.
She doesn't need to be reminded off the bullshit bc she already knows.
She know that everyone hates her && her behavior.
She know the people that have once been there...are packing their bags && giving up.
But one thing she doesn't know is whyy the waterworks this time?
Is today a special day?
Why when she said Man up they weren't listening to her which angered her even more..and brought them on stronger & faster. She souldn't control them which was upsetting.
Why does everything she touch turn to dust?
Why can't people just approve of people for who they are and how they are?
She's tired of living like this. And frankly they are tired of her living like this also.
They have no idea her pain..her misery. Thats why she isolates herslef from the world.
She lives on her own island..only comes to shore at times..but other than that she stays on that island.
The new ones that fall into her trap have no idea whats the deal. They are not ready for the roller coaster & so some may stand on the line but are not very patient so they get off and go to another ride. Some stand on the line get to the front and then they don't want to ride the roller coaster anymore. Some stand on the line get to the front get on the roller coaster and lose all their excitement bc the ride isn't what they expected. Then there are those that stand on that line for hours until they reach the top..they sit in the front the roller coaster to really experience the thrill and they love it. They rwant to ride that roller coaster over and over until their thrill is no longer there.



-Tears do really dry on their own

Meds.

I Lametrius Ollie white...will kill someone in the future && get away with murder. Possibly going on a killing spree? :D

OK so there is this young girl.
A lot of people call her Metri.

She is a nice looking girl.

But in reality she is all fucked up in the brain.
What runs thru her head?

aha if only u all knew.....

She will need professional help in the future..

She has a SERIOUS emotional problem.

Sometimes she has these random mood swings that she doesn't understand

But when she is to deep within there is no way of regaining their good sides.

They all HATE her for this...&& she doesn't really cares.

Just the fear about it sometimes that scares

herself...

She doesn't even remember who she is at the moment.

They all HATE her...that's great. She feeds off their hate..

She soaks in all their hate..their confusion..their anger..and

Like rays from the sun....she grows and grows off all this energy that surrounds her.

Her thoughts get more complicated.

So complicated that she is speaking another language

She can't understand herself.

Who is she?

"Will someone bring Lametrius her meds..she forgot to take them today."

-NO IDEA WHO I REALLY AM!

2.50 for 10 minutes? lol

Night was filled with....

Hoodies.

Party.

church.

5 dollars for 20minutes.

stupid people.

gay people.

homeless.

crazy insane.

lmfao.

last name?

idk.

Please don't sit with me.

HOW u doin [raspusha voice].

Fakes.

Annoying.

Xmas trees.

McDonalds.

Hookers.

Heels.

Rain.

Cold Air.

What? Bc one dance?

Like who? lol

dime bags ^_^

Living room floors.

6train.

-jerk. [con a smile]

watch------->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CKUm7bZoazY&feature=channel_page

Dripping Blood..

Her heart aces.

Her mind spins.

She is trying to fight

everything within.

She fights her tears

She fights her love

She fights herself

She fights when will it be enough?

Shee beats herfself down

until she is totally depressed

fuckingg up

lookin a hot mess

FUCK OFF !!

Let her be!

-the slow & painful death..

& died with no soul..

One the best songs ever: Immortal Technique-Dance with the devil

When will it sink in?

Still living as if...

it was all a dream.

yea just a dream

not reality. smhh can't be.

-Her lips are sealedddd shut!

she couldn't control herself

-Todays December 18th..the day she lost her mind.

Awaken Coma..

So She sleeps away her life

Every time she has a certain feeling

Her emotions are so backed up

She will definitely crack one day like a pair of Og's

&& she doesn't find anything wrong with it

But her friend says its dangerous

Why should she be awake && suffer?

So she might as well turn to death?

Her tears are angry

They are backed up as well

They form in her eyes but never have a chance to live

Lol who gives a fcuk?

They don't care bout her

They only pretend && try to bribe her

with their "LOVE" && "AFFECTION"

No they do not know whats goin on in her head.

NO they do not know what it feels like

living in her shoes everyday

She tries to apperciate.

She trys to express...but whats the deal with this expressionism?

She does not really believe in anythingg but sleeping.

She sleeps away her troubles && doesn't find anything wrong with it..

When she's a sleep she doesn't miss out.

Sleeping is an escape...so she sleeps away her life?

Midlife crisis...ahhhh =/

**Maydeathdouspart

-Do not judge a book by its cover

ello.

Ello there sunshine..lovely day?
The day was ok...coulda been better.
Idk what to do with myself.
Im one lazy fuck up.


w.e.

-drop out

December's bbq bacon shrimp

My life?

Living the life as a teen. Making moves. Chillin. Uh procrastinating.' Today finally seen & spoke to the God moms after 2wks. We went out to jersey me her & her moms...went to Bloomingdale's to pick up her coat. She actually walked out with two...&& me I just have to order my monclerr&Juicy online loll. Um after bloomys we went to TGIFridays...funny huh bc today is Friday?? [laughs to self] :shrugs shoulders: yea so I ordered the BBQ bacon shrimp came with onion rings & mashed potatoes...but I said FRIES! BBQ BACON SHRIMP IS LIVE. loll Grandma Mable ordered some broccoli

December's agenda;

December 6-Hair dresser...
December 9th&10th-Dance practice
December 13th- Urban Legends team Meeting
December 16th &17th-Last Dance practice b4 show
December 19th- My BEAUTIFUL twins BDAY!!!
December 22nd-Leslie Bday + Stefan Bday
December 23th-Last day of Sko_Ol & SHOW!!!


------> (-_-)ZzZz