Tolerance.

Tolerance is building up...
She on an uprising
Mute out the noise
Beat building
Circumcising
Round the playground
Shameless women
They make it rain
Pills and shit
Shits all wavy
Brainless hoes
Retarded babies
Destroyer of mankind
Undertaking...maybe
Save me
Panic room....
Public safety
Unstable
They replacing
Pawn on my chest
Hearts racing
Next move
Invisible yes!
Instrumental minds
Steady flowing
Growing out of control
Infection
Affectionate?
No showing
I vomit.

(5:32am randomness)

Sister Souljah.

'She puts a band aid over her broken pieces of her heart, puts Revlon on everything else, and faces the world like perfume on shit with a fake smile and a false sense of security.'

Controller.

'When you depend on people they have control over you and they enjoy having that control until you claim Independence day.' (c)Metri

This is my everyday life. Well rather this is our everyday lives. Why do we allow ourselves to be controlled? Subjected to verbal abuse because I am no Will Smith. Voice so faint. Words so vital.

As I watch people go to work I shake my head at how foolish people are. Wake up early mornings dressed in 'work' clothing....slaving their lives away (daily basis). Slave your life away for this green paper that summons that green-eyed monster. The question is why do we allow ourselves to be this enslaved nation? To accommodate to the cost of living standards? Why do we work for this invisible money? This money is invisible because every dollar that's in our possession is debt in rotation. It's not ours. We are only mislead to believe this. This money is the solution to all of our problems, when in fact it's the biggest instigator. The reason we go to war, the reason we hate, the reason we kill, hello Ben Franklin. From every catastrophe their is profit. This is a fact. Don't believe me? Watch 'The Corporation' it explains it all. Money is the root of all evil.

'Cash Rules Everything Around Me

C.R.E.A.M.

Get the money Dollar, Dollar Bill y'all.'

(c) Wu-Tang Clan

Wake up Call!!

New World Order.

We are in the last stage people, it's time to wake up

& pay attention.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3149990642797444340&ei=ssxvS4egONCGlgf8892nCQ&q=documentaries&hl=en&view=3#

Q & A.

One day I had a question..

(Me) Q:How do we go about summoning these 'Gods' within us?
(Friend) A: You can't summon gods for they will devour us.
(Me) Q: But why? Why would this divine power, this supreme good do such a thing?
(Friend) A: Humans are greedy & hungry for power. They will abuse this power.

Honesty.

This is I.

It is a little past 5am & my emotions are running wild. (What's new?)

'Emotions are fickle' -Joey & guess what I am a cancer as well. Does this really justify my behavior? Indeed it does. We are some Bi-Polar ass creatures so our emotional balance is constantly at Sea Level. I am here. These are my fingers & I am typing. These are my words that I am writing. (at the moment in time) Maybe I just believe that this current state that I am in right now to be the truth? Anyone knows what the truth is? Honestly. I'm just rambling some mumbo jumbo. Sometimes while lying in bed early mornings I can feel my soul trying to escape, but it doesn't go very far. There are a lot of things I wonder. I'm constantly thinking but I tend to keep my thoughts to myself or confide to my notebook. My notebook. Yes it's one of two things that really keep me sane. Music is my other form of therapy. It really keeps me from pleading insanity.

'Confined by four walls

my notebook I bare all,

my pillow my tears fall,

my mind my thoughts crawl...'

I've shed a numerous amount of tears over these pass few months. I find myself shedding tears more & more. Day by day. This is what happens when cookies crumble. This is what happens when the whole world is blind & everyone fails to see. Every one's expectations & doings are not that of their own. What's best for this country isn't always what's best for the Next Country. I'm unsure of life at the moment but I'm sure you are sure. Right?

People really don't understand how much I hate this materialistic, Judgemental ass world. How much I wish to disappear. How much I wish to change things & people but can't? We all are born to die. What's the point of pushing individualism if their words constantly bashing her?