Tuff Cookie?

I just love it....when the only person u wish u didn't hear from, u awant to hear from at this very moment. IDK what I want to write right now. I have no words..they put on a front just to be accepted in this world and I'm the one with the issues? I'm the one that has to change right? This is life..and human nature..why should I assimilate into these nonhuman like creatures? The ones that I hate, are the ones that are always there for me no matter what. They won't flake on me. Money that's all that this world wants, and needs and I totally wish I would give the world what they want. So this doesn't make sense? welp idc really. My blog my thoughts. Blah take it or leave it I really could give a rat's ass? but yet I suffer. My brick wall against the world just keeps getting bigger and bigger and it's gonna be harder to find your way over it. It would take a army to knock me down. I wish I was as emotional tough as I am on the soccer field. When I'm on the soccer field I knock people down and keep going, no emotion involved because all I'm worried about is my team and how I play as a player. It doesn't work like that in life, it's harder to run through something and just knock emotions out the way like it's nothing. Ugh I'm rambling to much fuck it.