What else can you do?

Deprive my brain, go ahead handicap my mind,

I don't mind b/c as you can see my cells are walking on crutches

I can hardly breathe, can hardly walk up right, straight?

Eh who cares....as long as I can spell my name right?

L-A-M-E

What's the rest? Why won't you help me?

:throws pen down:

Frustrations, Hopelessness, Give up, Fuck it.

Turns on television

and takes in

the invasive subliminal messages the media is sending to my mind

but I don't mind.

My brain cells quit working along time ago, right?

I Have A Cold.

Sniffles. Sneeze. Oh my nose bleeds. It burns my throat. Restless nights. Heavy coats. Popsicle lips. Popsicle nipps. Arthritis in my hip. Srry about my cold shoulder but the landlord playing with my heat. Germs Genocide defeat. Genius fall defeated. Brick hands, hold my cold feet. Shitty ass Government housing where the fck is my heat? Such slime America coughs up. Couple doses of syrup, that should help you feel better, therapy, mass hysterectomy. The president gave me a shot, and now I'm sicker, fcking freezing state of hypertension. Gps in my ear I hope those mother fckers are really LISTENING.

'My entangled mind hoping to be unraveled.' -(c)metri

'Silence is as Loud as Mute Child.'

Speak now or forever hold your tongue.
Do now or forever wish you have done.

Zeitgeist Movie.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-594683847743189197#

Not just a movie, but a movement.

Everyone NEEDS to watch this movie.

Everyone NEEDS to watch this movie.

Everyone NEEDS to watch this movie.

Everyone NEEDS to watch this movie.

Everyone NEEDS to watch this movie.

Everyone NEEDS to watch this movie.

Everyone NEEDS to watch this movie!

Pilgrimage.

In the middle of the Storm

I'm that girl who stood Alone

Homeless, the tornado took my Home

So like Dorothy I have to follow the Yellow Brick Road

Hungry and Alone

No Blankets I'm very Cold

Massive Headaches, Ears Ringing Bells

No Shoes I'm walking on Eggshells

It's quite Clear of my Condition

Everybody Blind they follow they own Missions

All while the Earth keeps Spinning....

Labor.

Ready to give birth

Premature flow

That miracle girl

Immaculate words

Abnormalities

My mind was defected at birth

I'm that Special girl.

I kill hopes & dreams with rocks & stones

My ground is solid

My words be known

My foot steps are hard

Ideas concrete

Come Tango with my mind

Drop bricks on your feet.

- Metri.

Restless.

my sufferings. your smiles.

A lot of times I want to tell people to fuck themselves but I keep my words & thoughts to myself. Constantly I have to tell myself this is only life, shit happens & you have to move on. We are forced to push our thoughts/feelings to the back of our minds & hope our memories will fade. We get hurt & we hurt others. Cycle of life. While my mind is restless at night, & I'm tossing & turning everyone else is sleeping like a baby. Sucks to have to sit back & let something/someone hurt you & can't speak about it because you are told to grow up. I guess....

Q: How does a person with no heart beat sleep at night?

'When Life is depressing, I don't start undressing, I start addressing...' (c) metri

DECEMBER !

Decemeber is here already.

Faster than a speeding light. Time is flying by....

Just some pictures from last year around January
when my camera was working.
:sigh:
FYI: I hate the winter & the snow

The Young African American Man...

'Behind every emotional disturbance there is a story.'

Tell me yours...

Being through so much emotionally from getting shot at, at a young age

to thoughts of Suicide.

The young African American Man...

I commend you and your Strength.

Despise the Pain, you've risen above it all.

The Young African American Man...

'Having you heart stepped on is the worst thing ever...you feel like you have nothing to live for but what doesn't kill you just makes you stronger.' -The Young African American Man...

Great Succes is in the future for you.

Live life never stress.

The Young African American Man...

oh how you inspire.

This is for you

The Young African American Man.

'Hair pulled back tight fit into a knit bun, never like showing my face but here it goes it's done

Afraid of your judgements always seemed to care, fuck what you say & fuck you I'm here.'

-Metri

Suicidal Thoughts.

"I just want to slit my wrist & end this bullshit.."

-Biggie

When our hearts are ripped out our chests, pulled apart, shattered into pieces, stomped on and thrown into the deepest wells, lost with no hope...we transform into different beings. The beating heart no longer exist and an infamous black hole appears. Along with our hearts, our emotions slowly wither away...and soon enough our minds are gone. we turn into these lifeless human beings with no hope in the world. everything and everyone is against us. There is no one out there like us, we are alone. we start to have suicidal thoughts. We think it's the easiest way out. POW! death = problem solver. In reality you are creating a bigger problem. Suicide is very Selfish. Your just thinking about yourself. Your not thinking about the people that love & care for you. The people that NEED you. What about others? Commiting suicide is a coward move. It's like why are you so afraid of living?

Times are hard. Everyday is a struggle for some of us. Relating to my last blog we have to learn how to vent & talk to people. This helps a lot. An escape for myself is writing blogs. Although i don't have a post everyday im constantly putting my emotions/thoughts/feelings onto paper or in another form. I just want to say no matter how bad your life is going right now, at this moment in time, please don't give up on it b/c there are those that will never give up on you. There are those who will always be there for you. Those that love & support you no matter what... so when the going gets tuff never give up! Life is precious, value it as long as 'God' is giving you the chance to.

P.S. I love you & I am here for you always and FOREVER.

Painful Smiles

Everyone is smiling. Walking around like everyday is a Sunday day. Oh what a perfect Society this is. Walk & Smile, walk & Smile. I try telling myself that everyday. You look at these Social networking sites and see people's emotions constantly on a roller coaster. Constantly movie trailers to life, always a preview. Now lets get to reality because sunny days and smiling faces everyday are not GENUINE. There are so many people that are crying on the inside. The world is filled with Silent Screams and restrained thoughts. There are many of us that put on a front for the outside world, when nearly every night we are crying ourselves to sleep. We turn to illegal substances and Alcohol poisoning as a way to escape, but all of this is just temporary. We all need help but we are so afraid to admit it. Bottled up emotions will only explode if constantly shaken up. Exploding, thus might put others in danger. We are all human. We all have emotions/feelings it a part of life that we have to deal with. Vent. Let it out. Sadness can birth beautiful art. (melox quote). Stop hiding your fear behind those pearly whites & talk to someone. There is always someone with an ear.

Scab.

I hope it never ends....
Hello Oblvion
My emotions kick in the front door
Straining hopes
Bleeding dreams....
Abstract Beings
Cloudy Minds
Lust seeping through the pores
So numb can't take it anymore.......

stream-of-conscious3

4am & yes I am still up so much on my mind omg tres tetas lol and i thought i had an issue there is only so much as humans that we can bring to the table ok idk where iwas going with that oh yes i am human & yes i hurt & yes it takes me a while to get over things but i try to look past them stay strong even if they are thrown in my face all the time shrugs so yea...ok this snoring is getting annoying seriously i need to listen to some music maybe damn its novemeber idk what to do really yes i need to get it together nods head.

BLAH BLAH BLAH!

BLAH BLAH BLAH!

I'm Naked. I'm Numb. I'm Stupid.

My in securities

grab a hold of me

& take control

which sets a cloud of fear

over my head

which triggers my mind,

my thoughts,

my reactions....

Writer's Block.

I have not blogged since August. Why am I slacking? I feel that everything I write shouldn't be bull shit. I'm trying to present you with the right choice of words or ideas & have not figured out how to approach it yet. My next blog is coming soon. Maybe today maybe not. Writer's Block.

Purexed - P.O.S.

This Video is so DOPE. The lyrics are on some next level shit. I Love it.

Reality Check.

Well today was just an ordinary same adventure day just a regular Tuesday nothing really new. Same Ole wandering around downtown ending up on 14th street smhh. I ran into some really awesome people down on 14th street & got a free show. A little poetry slam in front of my face. That was awesome I see that they were really passionate about what they do and realized that I really have no "real" passions. I mean dance is like blah now a days I barely bust a move but yet still can't stay still when I hear a beat. No matter how much you love something there is ALWAYS someone better out there or just a step ahead of you, which sucks by the way. I wish I was a little more artsy. I need some motivation. Being such a negative person doesn't help either. I need a passion!

Twugs.

My Face, My Space and no not Myspace I just need My Space.
Grant me my wishes, Pay me my dues, Roll me my blunt and pass me my booze.
A heart heart hearty meal is what I need to eat, update you on my status and no not a tweet.

(to be continued)

Summer Hair?

What is this a summer of shaved heads?

Rihanna really turned heads on Thursday when she rocked her new shaved head.

First it was Cassie, than La La Vasquez and now Rihanna? Who's next Miley Cyrus? LOL Just Imagine Miley....

I'm not even surprised @ Rihanna because she's a dare devil like that so yeah. Only time will tell before the end of the summer every girl will have a shaved head.

Only time will tell who's next to shave their head....

BTW; Who do u think looks the hottest with the shaved head?

Wale feat Lady Gaga

Chillin'. Kool colab. I like Wale's Swagg.

Beyonce.

Sweet Dreams. This video really is a sweet dream. From the outfits to the dancing.Sasha is Fierce. I love how she was krumping.

Taylor Swift

You Belong With Me. This song is nice & the vid is pretty kool.

So Bored.

Please someone get me a camera.

Truth be told..

Truth be told I'm not the one you want really to hold. I view the glass as being half empty, that's me the pessimistic. Yes some say I'm quite cynical. Achieve inner Harmony? We can't even stand to be in the same room, yet all the blame is on me. I accept this so call meaning of life even living above the influence can't take away this strife.

..


Fuck it. Chuck no-rris it.

July 11th 2009.

Well Yesterday was my 18th year living on this planet we call earth && I had a blast. Shout outs too all those who've wished me a Happy Birthday & those for spending it with me.

Kill the taste..

My feelings are so crisp and clear like the air they're always there u can't see them but you sure can feel them and breathe em and possibly need em. Your grey hairs are only just a color. Draining your eye sockets out are obscene your just the one to cause a big scene...


Your frail unrealistic gesture towards me as a root a source to your everyday needs, I beg to plead that you and your entrapment take a trip. Escape, climb over a few bricks and come to a conclusion that she is only a delusion and that your heart is full of illusions. It's all an error we could never be harmonious.

Your different plans of attack are poorly written and are truly unconvincing as they will continue to be. Please don't try to enforce your opinions on me for she will not open her eyes or ears to listen to your nonsense, face it your much to basic. And no she is not "mean" as word to mouth goes around. Your just a waste of life claiming your pretty profound. We do not feel bad for your Foolish mistakes. I'm the cancer you never wanted to hear about I am life's biggest gamble that venomous stake.

7/7/09 5:11am

Sleep Disorder much? It's 5 in the morning and I've been tossing and turning in my bed all night trying to get comfortable but couldn't. No sleep yet. The sun is rising and it's raining. Insomnia much? Insomnia is a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep. People with insomnia have one or more of the following symptoms:
*Difficulty falling asleep
*Waking up often during the night and having trouble going back to sleep
*Waking up too early in the morning
*Feeling tired upon waking

Yup that's me. Ugh I need help. Also I think I might have a bladder problem. Every hour on the hour it never fails that I have to use the bathroom.There isn't one day out that I don't have to stop i nthe apple store or a nearby starbucks to use the restroom (which I might say isn't a very pleasant experience at all). I'm bored. There is nothing on television except these paid programs -_-. I definently just watched an informercial about an exercise machince called "The Ab Circle Pro" and all these people were "dique" in love with it. CRAP! That's what it all is...but hey it made me want to try it out for 30days. If I do not see results in 30 days than I get my money back lol. Like I said I'm bored so I'm signing on facebook. Blah Blah want to Chat Add me. It's Lametrius White.

P.S. ThrowBack Summer '08 pic.

40 oz bounce part 3

That defn was the Best 4th of July by far!!

July 4th Goliath Sale.

Blog This. 2

Blah Blah & More Blah?

Count down..

8 more Days till My Birthday.

After that 365 more days till my death.

Free Chester French/Kid Cudi Concert.

Yup I was there bright and early standing on my feet for several hours with friends waiting for this concert to begin. The concert was suppose to be from 5:30-8:30 I believe so but the rain postponed everything and it didn't start until after 7 smfh. Being there since 1 my feet were screaming at me and having being rained on didn't help either. I was really getting impatient but from the words of my friend Gabby I continued to stand there and wait. Since my camera stopped working -___- my friends IPhone was used. The pics aren't that clear due to all the screaming fans pushing but take a look...

Chester French Sound Check...

During the performance...

Special Guest? Travie From GCH

A Kid Named Cudi...

Standing on my feet for hours and getting rained on was all worth it in the end because it was a great concert and I'd totally go see Chester French again!
LOL here's a funny pic of me that I took before the concert started..

Suicidal Fans?

Menstruation.

My starvation only leads up to the temptation that exceeds my pronunciation of this nation where is my aid station? Now who's to buy my plantation? Please don't judge my fixation it's only my duration due to my privation. Now what is your fascination? Celebration? No no need to justify this is my confirmation and no it's not a duplication. Why do I need any explanation of my blind prophet observations? Your treatments are an abomination. And what's your excuse your lack of adult education? Gentrification leads to cremation which messes up our rotation of our allegations do u get my proclamation? Fuck ! Limitation? Regulation? Segregation? Separation? Fuck your alienation & your ejaculation. No need for anymore elaboration or any justifications because this is my artistic creation, my argumentation, no need for classification. Fuck your reputation for this is my operation my implantation....

Denial.

She walks with a smile, which quickly turns to a frown, everything in mind just sinks down, closer to the ground, further from the sky and the lime light.
Her fears set in, her mind goes off the wall, all the time in the world was always set wrong.
She has a drink in one hand, a L in the other, getting cut off from the world, from people she considered mother?
They curse and depress her for disrespecting their authority, but these bitches aren't shit she says where the fuck is the maturity?
Stuck in a box, body on thin ice, one wrong move, will send her into a coma, possibly death if u ask the world.
She walks with a smile nearly day and nearly night and her illegal actions and promiscuous ways are only the beginning to a tragic ending.

SOTM.

Song Of The Moment.

Paranoid-Jonas Bros.

Blog This.

Blah Blah Blah.

Zamarra ?

You say I've tricked you right into deceit.

That I've pulled the sheepskin right over your face?

HA! You were the fool, that walked right into the black hole.

You are a 'self-confessed love addict', who's mind plays tricks.

You use your looks as a way to sway the world.

Rice & peas!

Henny & Coke!

What did u think, that'd be the ending result?

Everything in life is only a daze, and this my poor child was only a phase.

Like lightining I've struck my tree and disappered.

No waste of time trying to find my Burial in the sky.

Life is to short to grasp && hold onto that one little seed.

Daily Bread.

I do what I regret, I regret what I do.

My heart is fascinated by the things your into.

I'm selfish, yes this is something I must confess.

I'm scared, my heart is hard.

My mind doesn't mind, so why should u mind?

I hold my breathe to see how long I shall survive.

But I'm skating along on this thin ice.

We were riding the same ride but then the ride slowed

And we got up out of our seats && tried something new

And to find out we end back up in the same boat, just us two.

Some may say it's destiny at it's peak

Or maybe there is something invisible that we both seek.

Whatever time of the day, month or year.

A couple of more days, and who sheds the last tear?

Our Father!

Gives us this day our

Daily Bread, and forgive us of our trespasses,

as we forgive those who trespass against us;

and lead us not into temptation,

but deliver us from evil.

7/11

Today is 6/11 and a month from this date will be 7/11 which is my Bday!
So get your gifts ready : ]

Dooms Day.

It's june and I haven't blogged in years. So wassup? Sup with me?? oh nothing much just had prom. That night was magical && I totally wish I could do it again. Since my camera stopped working and I arrived rather late..I dont really have pics =[ but the pics that people took of me.

I wore a green dress because I never wore green before and it was a really nice dress for a last minute find.

Well that's enough with prom. School is ending and I'm glad. Next step graduation. And then?? IDk not to sure yet. I'm setting my own path why should i be forced to follow the foot steps of others?

This is it for now.

Tuff Cookie?

I just love it....when the only person u wish u didn't hear from, u awant to hear from at this very moment. IDK what I want to write right now. I have no words..they put on a front just to be accepted in this world and I'm the one with the issues? I'm the one that has to change right? This is life..and human nature..why should I assimilate into these nonhuman like creatures? The ones that I hate, are the ones that are always there for me no matter what. They won't flake on me. Money that's all that this world wants, and needs and I totally wish I would give the world what they want. So this doesn't make sense? welp idc really. My blog my thoughts. Blah take it or leave it I really could give a rat's ass? but yet I suffer. My brick wall against the world just keeps getting bigger and bigger and it's gonna be harder to find your way over it. It would take a army to knock me down. I wish I was as emotional tough as I am on the soccer field. When I'm on the soccer field I knock people down and keep going, no emotion involved because all I'm worried about is my team and how I play as a player. It doesn't work like that in life, it's harder to run through something and just knock emotions out the way like it's nothing. Ugh I'm rambling to much fuck it.

Um that's me...

So I wrote this awhile back, maybe in the summer, on my blog on the myspace and recently re-read it and yea I'm posting for your viewings today...


Many call me metri. UM I believe in what I believe. I do as I please without a care in the world. Very nonchalant person. 100% of the time I walk in && out my house whenever without even a hi or bye. idc really. My thoughts are not totally sane. I live a secret life. It is a 99% chance that I'll need professional help & a bottle of meds in the future. Many people believe they know me or are like me...false. I do believe that cancers are really emotional. Hate emotions they are stupid. I Say fuck em all bc we only live for ourselves. People are cynical. Most my $$ goes to food. I only express my feelings through a blog spot && my mind. They are the only two things that listen to me. I don't believe in sitting down letting people know how I feel. That's stupid && a total waste of time. Yes I am a bitch, a jerk, an ass, w.e. u wanna call me but hey that's just me. Now hand me a bottle of Prozac?

Prisoner

Even sunlight dares

and trembles through

my bars

to shimmer

dances on

the floor.

A clang og

lock and

keys and heels

and blood-dried

guns.

Even sunshine dares

It's jail

and bail

then rails to run.

Guard grey men

serve plates of rattle

noise and concrete

death and beans.

Then pale sun stumbles

through the poles of

iron to warm the horror

of grey guard men.

It's jail

and bail

then rails to run.

Black night.

The me

myself of me sleeks

in the folds and history

of fear. To secret hold

me deep and close my

ears of lulls and clangs

and memory of hate.

Then night and sleep

and dreams.

It's jail

and bail

then rails to run.

-Maya Angelou

It's all because of the Brain.

My hopes are high, I'm quite high on hopes.

Only Time Will Tell...

Please don't force or rush my ideas or meddle with my emotions, because only time will tell.
It will tell if things are assorted correctly and if not then welp the world will crumble.

Time will tell the good from the bad but after all is it really different from this or that?
I conclude not. I guess what my mind is trying to whisper will only effect the smallest of creatures. One's face isn't always of clarity or words meant to inflict on one's mentality.

Forgive those that are lost and who have sinned. They have no idea how to separate the weak form the fake. Their eyes hold the truth, which lies deep within the pupils. Who's going in with the flashlight through the ear? The nose? the mouth? Shall you take it head on?

So many different views. How will we go about and choose? Because in the end we only have Self-Reliance...

..only time will tell.





**Trust thyself: every heart vibrates to that iron string.**

Stomach..

The pain is calling
the worms, they crawling
tearing and eating away at her insides..


Stomach pains.

Life is...

..is well life.

Haven't blogged in a minute..umm what do I say..idk.
I have nothing to say so this is stupid. I really don't feel like sharing my life with the world anymore....whats the point?
w.e. im done.

The Road Not Taken - Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;


Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,


And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.


I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

The different TYPES.

There are all types of homosapiens in this universe and I am my own type.

The REAL world.

Here's an update on my life...

Soccer season started...and I sprianed my ankle the first game.
Failed a class =[
Planning a party
Got my Old friend bakk.

Growing...

Part of the growing up process involves facing one's issues and fears..

..I guess I am.

Always & forever..

Shall I dance.


Nothing will stop me.

thanks.

realizes...

it's all about the C's with her.

Completion, Competition, Compliments, Cursed, Character, Confusion, commitment,


she has a problem with those words.

Laugh Now Cry Later.

This is how life works. We laugh at the moment but when we are home alone pondering, roll of thunder hear my cry. My cry that's so null and oblivious to the outside world. My cry that pleads for help. My cry quite the contrary to her cry. Naw My cry is far from ordinary. In fact it's quite obscure. Reign over me. Reign over me Reign over me.

Google Images..

There are some of the latest images that I've come across from google images. If you didn't Know I love Google. I google EVERYTHING especially images and definitions. Also I'm a big fan of the art world. From the photography to the paintings. I love it all. I take a lot of pics but I'm no photographer. I have a character named bob that I doodle everywhere but I'm no artist. My art is dancing so that makes me a dancer. But enough about that I can go on and on...to the images..

I'll resurrect every aborted baby and start an army..

Hmmm she can feed thousands of babies.

IDK I just can't put my hand on it..

Long hair don't care? O_o

Ahh Shoot Shoot Shoot and I made u lo_ok

Puts me in the mood for fries.

Aim Ready fire.

Ahh mans time for a new car?

A world without color would be very dull,

There would be no joy, And happiness null.

Great Shots. ^_^ Tell me which image do u like the best.

Sneaker Con Recap

Yesturday March 1st Sneaker Con came to NYC at the Time Square Arts Center. The event went pretty well besides the overcrowding at one point and the standing in line for what seemed like hours (not really like 20minutes) lol. There were Vendors everywhere with plenty of exclusive kicks and clothes. Of course I was with F..&E Clothing && KEROK KICKZ which was teamed up for u Retro,Og Jays and Sb lovers and of course the main feature the Clothing line. While jamming to the beat people got to to buy sell and trade their heat. HA! Plenty of networking. Met a lot of great people. Can't wait for the next event.

Shoutouts to Sole Sirius, KicksandChicks, OSneaker, and MilkShakeNyc.

Here are some of the photos captured from my friends camera.

OutSide Online.

Lines were Deep.

Big Turn Out
lol Looking lost
KicksButt ^_^
Baby heat

Kerok Kickz & Allah

Kerok Kickz && F..&EClothing Table.
Buy the Crew Neck by F..&E Clothing.
Luis Jordan and Devante.
Sneaker Con 09.

DunkXChange in 3wks. March 28th. See u there. =]