Wake up Call!!

New World Order.

We are in the last stage people, it's time to wake up

& pay attention.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3149990642797444340&ei=ssxvS4egONCGlgf8892nCQ&q=documentaries&hl=en&view=3#

Q & A.

One day I had a question..

(Me) Q:How do we go about summoning these 'Gods' within us?
(Friend) A: You can't summon gods for they will devour us.
(Me) Q: But why? Why would this divine power, this supreme good do such a thing?
(Friend) A: Humans are greedy & hungry for power. They will abuse this power.

Honesty.

This is I.

It is a little past 5am & my emotions are running wild. (What's new?)

'Emotions are fickle' -Joey & guess what I am a cancer as well. Does this really justify my behavior? Indeed it does. We are some Bi-Polar ass creatures so our emotional balance is constantly at Sea Level. I am here. These are my fingers & I am typing. These are my words that I am writing. (at the moment in time) Maybe I just believe that this current state that I am in right now to be the truth? Anyone knows what the truth is? Honestly. I'm just rambling some mumbo jumbo. Sometimes while lying in bed early mornings I can feel my soul trying to escape, but it doesn't go very far. There are a lot of things I wonder. I'm constantly thinking but I tend to keep my thoughts to myself or confide to my notebook. My notebook. Yes it's one of two things that really keep me sane. Music is my other form of therapy. It really keeps me from pleading insanity.

'Confined by four walls

my notebook I bare all,

my pillow my tears fall,

my mind my thoughts crawl...'

I've shed a numerous amount of tears over these pass few months. I find myself shedding tears more & more. Day by day. This is what happens when cookies crumble. This is what happens when the whole world is blind & everyone fails to see. Every one's expectations & doings are not that of their own. What's best for this country isn't always what's best for the Next Country. I'm unsure of life at the moment but I'm sure you are sure. Right?

People really don't understand how much I hate this materialistic, Judgemental ass world. How much I wish to disappear. How much I wish to change things & people but can't? We all are born to die. What's the point of pushing individualism if their words constantly bashing her?

'When the time is right she will appear &

until then it's her time to disappear,

and like a ghost she is gone,

waiting at the bus stop alone,

for that future ride Zig Zag palms.

Who will stand at the bus stop when she arrives back home?'

2010

New year. What does this all mean? Are we really closer to our death? I'm not as positive as others. Actually I'm never positive as some of you may know. If you know me personally or if you've been following my blog posts since 2008. I have no goals or resolutions. I just have hopes & dreams that usually get crushed like a soda can. :kanye shrug?: It will take years for me to actually get my life in order. It will not happen in a day or two, a couple weeks or a 'New Year'. Change happens when it's suppose to happen. When people acknowledge their issues at hand & say 'Hey it's time for a change.' Myself? I can care less. That's my horrid demeanor that I should possible change?

Sometimes I see why others seek religion. It's a form of security. That invisible man in the sky oh how we love you & all that you've done for us. We praise thee. For you are always there when no one is. You are there when I'm at my lowest point. Oh Invisible man in the sky. We praise Thee.

I can never be one of those people. We are in control of our own destinies (as joey told me). We are our own faults & our biggest enemies. Honestly I have no idea where this is going. I just wanted to update my blog & I'm just going along with my mind & fingers.

Hello 2010...