Monday, November 23, 2009

Painful Smiles


Everyone is smiling. Walking around like everyday is a Sunday day. Oh what a perfect Society this is. Walk & Smile, walk & Smile. I try telling myself that everyday. You look at these Social networking sites and see people's emotions constantly on a roller coaster. Constantly movie trailers to life, always a preview. Now lets get to reality because sunny days and smiling faces everyday are not GENUINE. There are so many people that are crying on the inside. The world is filled with Silent Screams and restrained thoughts. There are many of us that put on a front for the outside world, when nearly every night we are crying ourselves to sleep. We turn to illegal substances and Alcohol poisoning as a way to escape, but all of this is just temporary. We all need help but we are so afraid to admit it. Bottled up emotions will only explode if constantly shaken up. Exploding, thus might put others in danger. We are all human. We all have emotions/feelings it a part of life that we have to deal with. Vent. Let it out. Sadness can birth beautiful art. (melox quote). Stop hiding your fear behind those pearly whites & talk to someone. There is always someone with an ear.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Scab.

I hope it never ends....
Hello Oblvion
My emotions kick in the front door
Straining hopes
Bleeding dreams....
Abstract Beings
Cloudy Minds
Lust seeping through the pores
So numb can't take it anymore.......

Thursday, November 12, 2009

stream-of-conscious3

4am & yes I am still up so much on my mind omg tres tetas lol and i thought i had an issue there is only so much as humans that we can bring to the table ok idk where iwas going with that oh yes i am human & yes i hurt & yes it takes me a while to get over things but i try to look past them stay strong even if they are thrown in my face all the time shrugs so yea...ok this snoring is getting annoying seriously i need to listen to some music maybe damn its novemeber idk what to do really yes i need to get it together nods head.

BLAH BLAH BLAH!
BLAH BLAH BLAH!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I'm Naked. I'm Numb. I'm Stupid.

My in securities
grab a hold of me
& take control
which sets a cloud of fear
over my head
which triggers my mind,
my thoughts,
my reactions....

Friday, September 4, 2009

Writer's Block.

I have not blogged since August. Why am I slacking? I feel that everything I write shouldn't be bull shit. I'm trying to present you with the right choice of words or ideas & have not figured out how to approach it yet. My next blog is coming soon. Maybe today maybe not. Writer's Block.